I'm Working on It or It's Not Too Late?

Hi; I received the book r12 last week and am just now starting on the 2nd part.  I'm 62, have known about Jesus since dirt, but became 'saved' Easter Sunday 1997.  I've grown quite a bit since then in my walk, but for the past couple of years, just didn't feel "connected" to Jesus.  When I became disabled, my "christian" husband walked out on me and left me penniless july 2005.  My one and only daughter won't have anything to do with me since I found out that she was stealing from her ex-step-mother-in-law, and the woman ( who had taken my daughter in like her own ) pressed charges against my daughter.  SO, it is my fault you see.  I have struggled financially ( I live on $1076.00 a month), have had to sell just about everything to keep my manufactured home.  My "Isaacs" have been the lack of $ to even live on, my home, and ofcourse being abandoned by the 2 people who are supposed to stick with me no matter what.  I finally said "I'm all In" because I can't see any other way to live.  Your book Chip, finally got  me to see that God really does want me to have HIs best, but I'm so scared, and I told God that in my journal and prayers.  I have 4 pets that always eat first, and I've had my home for 10 years , it was truly a gift from God.  I just can't believe that He's brought me through all that I've gone thru to lose my home now.  I read and re-read many of the previous pages, just in case I've missed something.  I NEED to feel connected to my Lord, He is all I have left.  Never enough gas to get to church, but I listen to you on the radio each morning, and I believe that I will grow closer to God, because your book is showing me what has prevented me from that, how to get over my "Issacs" and grow in the way we are supposed to as a r12 Christian.  Thank you Chip for telling it like it is, and for all the Lord has used you for in His work.  I have no clue ( best, huh?) as to what the Lord will bring me next, I certainly am not new to advesary, my entire life has been full of bad.  I think that is one of the "Isaacs" for me, even after becoming a ? Christian, my life really became full of strife, and pain.  There hasn't been even a breathing space for me to regroup, I know that I made it thru ONLY because the Lord gave me HIs strength, I would have given up years ago.  I am looking forward to more challenges/problems and trouble, only this time with a supernatural God working with me!!